Today, I felt a disturbance in the force. It was as if a million voices suddenly cried out in terror and were suddenly silenced.
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I woke up at 5:40 am to hear terrible news about the US of A awful election shenanigans, and I could not go back to sleep for the life of me. I felt the rest of the morning with an empty hole in my heart, trying to cope with the reality. I do not live in America, but it still affected me greatly. I honestly should have went back to sleep instead of staying up, and seeing how other people were reacting. Yet I didn't, I felt the sadness seep out from every American I knew today and it was heartbreaking.
How do you pick yourself back up after knowing that someone who hates you and your friends' guts can hurt them in a lot of ways they can't fight back against? I could do nothing but sit back and watch and hope it'll get better. But sometimes it doesn't work that way. You may be asking why am so concerned about American matters if I don't even live there? Let me let you in on a little secret. I live in the same continent, just up north. And whatever happens in America will still hit Canada hard. We are attached to the hip with it, we're stuck with America whether we like it or not. We are quite literally a border away from total disaster, and frankly I think that's enough reason to give a shit, because I have no doubt whatever the fucking raisin has planned out will still influence the Canada's affairs. Seeing the CBC headlines didn't quite comfort me either. There had been talks of military spending possibly being pressured more under orange screaming babyman's fascist rule, and I'm scared that the Canadian government will give in to that pressure, among other things I rather not get into for the sake of preserving what's left of my shrinking sanity.
Another reason why, is that I care about the people there enough to exercise some empathy that was apparently left back in 2015 and dropkicked into the atmosphere. A lot of the of the people affected the most by this outcome will be the people who don't get enough support already, who get ignored in favour of the status quo. People of colour, immigrants, the LGBTQ+ and the neurodivergent. We no longer live in isolated tracts of land, the ripples of one stone is enough to resonate throughout the pond.
I honestly don't have a whole structure for this post, I've been running on less than 6 hours of sleep all day and it's hard to go back to sleep. But I want to push this into another direction that isn't doom and gloom, because I bet social media is full of now and I really don't feel like echoing that. So I'll move on to my next point.
After all this, what's next? What do we do now? Well, I don't know. I personally don't know what you're gonna do, but I know that I'm not gonna go down without a fight and you shouldn't either. If anything this just proves that people clearly need to do more than just vote a few years and keep up an illusion of "democracy", then forget about it until the next election rolls around. People including me! I'm barely involved in politics, especially in my own country, but that got me absolutely nowhere. I can't just rely on the "goodwill" of the politicians who couldn't give less of a fuck about me. Hell, they hate my kind. I live in a fucking province whose government apparently hates our guts by denying the option of gender-affirming surgery. And I'm not doing shit about it! All I did was avoid everything that involved conflict, wallowing in my own self loathing and deep sorrow. And you know what, that's stupid! Why should I be sulking about how terrible life fucking is, when I should have devoted that time making it suck less for others?? What did that ever do for anybody? What am I gonna gain from spending my time complaining to God knows who about what's wrong in the world, if I'm not just gonna do anything about it??
So I'm not going to sit around anymore. I'm gonna keep trying, I'm gonna get even more in tuned with the world, especially mine. I'm not just gonna survive, I'm going to thrive, because people like Trump don't want love to thrive. They don't care about the consquences if it means having to hurt the people they hate the most. He is just a mouthpiece in which bigotry is allowed to fester and spread like a disease, we need to stop giving people like him a chance to speak. Silence is tolerance, and I do not tolerate a goddamn word Trump and politicians like him say at all. Fuck apathy and fuck nihilism. I'm gonna go out and live my life as a form of protest to the people who hate seeing me thrive in this big wide world. Peace.